Hello all…
My name is Kelli and I live in Texas. Thank you everyone for all of your sharing. It’s great to know that were all on this path together! I have been married and divorced twice. Looking back my first marriage wasn’t all that horrible. We both came from broken homes and although we got along we had no idea how to communicate. I wish I had tried to work on myself and not tried to change him. If I had had some insight maybe things would have been different. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t miss him or want to go back, but part of my path has been to analyze what I have been through and how I could have done it better or differently. My second marriage was to an alcoholic. I think I really got caught up in the drama of being called a cunt one minute and then having him kiss my ass for the next fews days.
Anyway, I have been single for four years. In the aftermath I have spent those years trying to discover why I held the bar so low. I am a very happy single person who doesn’t need to jump into a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship. Why from all of the wonderful men and great opportunities out there would I settle for one man who was completely emotionally unavailable and another that was an extremely abusive alcoholic?
I am very blessed with a core gift of passion! I love life and everything it has to offer! I wake up everyday with enthusiasum and shout to God, what do you have in store for me today!! It’s a great life!
I think another core gift is empathy. I can understand where people are coming from, to a fault. I never stick up for myself. If someone is upset with me or mad at me, I always consider, well, they must have a good reason. When people treat me badly I assume I deserve it. Writing that just now made me sad…
I have been doing my meditation daily. I have set my timer for 6 minutes so that I’m not constantly looking at the clock. I think I’m going to start adding more time. I haven’t really noticed much except for this morning when I was visualizing what I wanted in a partner I wondered if I was the person that they would be looking for…
My study buddy is a vibrant, passionate person with a great story line, I love visiting and sharing with her…