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I just wrote a crazy long post in response to this…. I mean crazy long like I was typing for 30 minutes. Â Of course, I somehow lost it/deleted it right as I was about to post it, lol.
But I think – I hope – that the process of writing it was what I needed, and not the process of having it read or receiving feedback on it.
The short version is, my “next brave step” is to STAY OPEN.
I recently did several concrete things to develop several of my core gifts. Â I also had 2 dates, both of which I had moments of revelation and growth during the date and was able to apply things from class. Â (I detailed all of this in the lost post!) Â Then, as a direct result of one of the concrete steps I had made, I had a new, potential relationship of inspiration seemingly drop out of the sky and into my lap. Â All of a sudden I am scared shitless that I am just not ready. Â I am such a work-in-progress, whereas this particular man (at least initially) seems to have lived a life committed to self-development and consciousness in regard to his gifts and relationships. Â A partnership needs to be on equal footing. Â I may have things to learn from him, but could he learn from me? Â He might open my soul, but can I open his? Â I am afraid that when he “sees” me, he will decide I am not the whole, conscious, spiritual partner he seeks. Â I wonder whether he experiences the same types of fears? Â Or is he long past those insecurities?
I’m trying to acknowledge the progress of baby steps in the right direction, vs. running like an Olympic sprinter in the opposite direction.
Yup, STAY OPEN.